This too, shall pass..

I came back to this sanctuary of mine with mixed feelings. I've always wanted this blog to be a cheerful & silly space, a bed of roses, a breath of fresh air, a medium of escapism, a place where anyone (or myself at least) to drop by when the days are bad. I've tried so hard to arrange my words over and over in advance, way in advance it took me weeks, months, and almost a year, yet I can't seem to narrate even a simple beautiful sentence, when my heart is so much in aching, hurting, and I'm still on a long journey to heal. But how do you really move on from a betrayal of a friend? To be Sabr (patience) and Redha (to accept whole-heartedly) is still a struggle for me. But life experiences, bad things happen, Don’t Let It Stop You From Living! I am far too precious & important for this world. And there are lots of people who needs me and values me, be it a stranger just passing by. Allah has a BIG BIG plan for me. Still a long way to go, but I'm heading there, to a peaceful and contented state of mind. I'm on my way. May Allah Ease.

Morning at Lake Wakatipu, New Zealand. 2017.