Aku, Semalam dan Hari Ini.

Semalam,
aku menghambur kata insaf
aku meratib doa-doa kudus
tanpa malu tanpa segan
dalam sujud yang paling panjang
menghadap Rabb-ku yang satu
"aku tak layak untuk syurga-Mu,
tapi aku takut seksa neraka-Mu"

Hari ini,
dalam sedar dalam tak sedar,
dalam waras dalam nanar,
dalam amukan kegilaan itu,
aku merelakan diriku,
tergelincir lagi,
untuk kesekian kali.

Tuhan,
tutupkanlah jalan-jalan kelabu itu
padamkanlah rasa-rasa palsu itu,
kuncikanlah pintu-pintu kerosakan itu,
aku mahu penamat untuk ini
aku mahu penghujung yang hakiki
aku mahu ke jalan-Mu yang abadi.

Tuhan,
sejijik mana pun aku,
sehina mana pun aku,
izinkan aku walau sekali, 
menjadi yang bersih dan putih di mata-Mu lagi,
menjadi sang taubat yang telah pulang kembali,
menjadi yang dikasihani, oleh sang Maha Pengasihani.

32 years old, and still single. That's no joke. Wake up and smell the coffee coz  it's no longer FUNNY!!

p/s: Sindrom hari cuti, alone-in-a-foreign-country, malas-buat-homework!

2013 : A little post from Kyoto! (BIGBANG Special Finale..)

Salam!

Oh may god, it's almost 3.00 a.m right now and I've just finished my Dec'12 report which I need to submit to HQ by tomorrow!  I am now in Japan, undergoing my 6 months intensive language course before joining the HQ office in April'13. It's been a roller coaster ride here in Japan, but let's just say I'm doing alright now. I just came back from my winter vacation in South Korea and it's snowing like crazeee!! I only have 2 more days left to complete my countless homeworks before school starts again on Wed (yet I'm blogging!). Well, I need to do this quick post for my beloved friends before my life gets hectic again with all the Japanese thingy to memorize!

Specifically, it's all about Bigbang's Alive Tour Concert : Special Finale in Kyocera Dome, Osaka on 24th  November! Yeah, my new JVIP tomodachi got me a ticket which costed about 10,000Yen (RM400)!! I went to the stadium alone, rode the wrong train once (haha!) and asked a Japanese couple for directions (which coincidentally on their way to the concert as well!) so I managed to find the big octopus shaped-dome. Lucky me, people could understand my poor Japanese and when the staff showed me my seat I was like...WOAHH!! Is this for real?!!! I was more than happy to get the 3rd row seat but an official JVIP seat is just too awesome to be true!! I love you so much Mihyang Chan!!

Okay,   actually Mihyang Chan got me and Nori Chan (both are my JVIP tomodachi from Twitter!) seated next to each other. It's my first time meeting Nori Chan and my oh my was she a bubbly lady! So sweet and friendly! I was quite embarrassed to cheer for the boys at first but Nori Chan was being more than a sport waving her light stick like there's no tomorrow! And so I followed...LOL!

The Kyocera Dome stadium was so magnificent with the capacity of 50,000 people. First time attending concert in Japan I could see that JVIP are very well-behaved fans! Not like in South Korea, though. Everything was very well coordinated and we really enjoyed our self. Bigbang sang most songs in Japanese version so whenever they sang the Korean version I went all crazy just to sing-along! Too bad Dae Sung didn't get to do his flying action during Wings. I was waiting for that to happen. Seungri gave the most fan service (as always) running to every sections and waved at the fans. They poured golden confetti in the air and I just looked at fans trying to grab it without knowing there's Bigbang signatures on each ribbons! Uwaa!!! I guess the best moment was when JVIP sang My Heaven chorus part before the encore. 1 word : S-U-R-R-E-A-L!

I brought my Malaysian flag with me and Nori Chan was very kind to help me waved it the whole time during the encore! We were pretty sure (like 80% sure!) that Yong Bae and Seungri saw us..hahaha..mission accomplished!  Well, I guess that's about it. The songs lists and performance were pretty much the same with their other concerts. I wished I could understood better what they were saying though. I mean, it's not like they are fluent in Japanese (except for Seungri). Erm, maybe I should try to listen more carefully on their 13th Jan's concert? Opps...did I spilled out the beans??? Hihihi.......Until we meet again!!

Takoyaki Stall nearby airing BB's concert to attract customer!! LOL!!

Being ME - Muslimah Empowered @ Matrade, KL

Salam and howdy peeps!
Say whutt?? It's July already?? Where have all the hours gone to?? **smack-own-head**. There's so many unfinished task and topic for me to cover before my departure to Japan. Even though I still have 3 months left, my colleague/trainer is going for her maternity leaves in 2 weeks time. Huh, just great.. 


Despite my busy schedule, I did managed to attend a 1 day conference called  Being ME-Muslimah Empowered with 2 of my VIP buddies (oh yeah!). I was supposed to join my family for a trip to Vietnam but I just couldn't missed this event! I bought a discounted ticket for early birds for only RM100 and masyallah, it sure does worth every penny! The 'woman only' conference was held on the 30thJune at Matrade, Kuala Lumpur, hosted by the ever so lovely sister Wardina Saffiyah. It was first of a kind held in Malaysia with many international speakers flew-in by the organizers to share their thoughts and experiences.  


The event started around 10.00a.m with the recital of the Holy Quran and continued with a heartwarming poem. The talks were alternated with sessions of Muslimah fashion show, nasheed and also all-day bazaar outside the main hall. They also provide a daycare area for fathers and their toddlers. How considerate! Back to the topics discussed, it revolves on the roles and challenges of Muslim women (single or married) in today's society, how Muslim can achieve balance inside out and also the power of change! Sister Raya Shokatfard from USA shared her story of her long quest to find God, which after many years of studying different religions she finally found her way back to Allah SWT and Islam. Lots of tears were shared during the whole event. Here are few quotes from my favorite speakers:

Hijab is not to hide you, but only your body. Hijab is to highlight your personality, your value and your intellectual as Muslimah. (Dr. Fadilla Grine, Canada)

Your position to God, is not determine by human. Your value, is not determine by how many man who likes you. If you seek for love, seek it through God and not lust. Perfection can only be found in Allah SWT. (Sister Yasmin Mogahed, USA).

Be careful with your heart, don't love someone more than Allah SWT, and don't let your heart breaks for other than Him. (Sheikh Yahya Ibrahim, Australia). 

Conference like this can help you gain so much. (Too bad I couldn't stay for the night sessions) It opens your eyes, your mind, your heart, quench your thirst for knowledge and wisdom. It's a reminder and encouragement, shared by your beloved sisters and brothers in Islam. May Allah blessed their good deeds. I pray that I could have many more opportunities and the desire to attend such event in the future. Soon, Insyaallah.

MAY's intermission.

Salam & Howdy peeps!

It's the last day of May, sadly I don't have any travelogue for the month, YIKES! Must go on food quest@outdoor challenge@vacation very-very soon! Actually I wanted to write a long ( I mean, LONGGGGGGGGG) post about my recent trip to South Korea but I'm just not feeling it right now. But I will still do it, I must!!! Err...sometime later maybe..hehe..Well, I'm gonna be transferred  to Japan in Oct, so I'm pretty busy with my OJT for the next 4 months! Gosh..there goes my fangirl's a.k.a spazzing nonstop life! But I plan to post as many travelogue as possible during my 2 and a half years stay over there. :)


Oh, I'm also about 90% 100% positive that I'll missed the BIGBANG's world tour concert in Malaysia this coming 27th Oct.  November. Okay, JUST GREAT. **sulking behind closed doors**.

2012 BIG SHOW CONCERT - BIGBANG ALIVE TOUR IN SOUTH KOREA!

So this year I gave myself the BIGGEST birthday present ever which was; a trip to South Korea for 5 days just to see my boys much-awaited comeback! Huh, crazy?? NOOO!!! Hahaha..Well, it's just now, or NEVER..And boy, the experience does worth all the sweats and tears that I had to endure for it..

New friends, all the way from Malaysia beybeh!

Welcoming 2012 with BUNGY JUMPING @ Sunway Lagoon!

Salam and greetings!!

Ohemjie, I've missed out the post for January! tsk..tsk..tsk..Work's really taking a troll out of me since my colleague decided to resign from work end of the month. Grrr!!! So many stress!!! So me and my friend just decided to do THIS! It was prompt, no room to back out! Hehehe..I am so proud of myself and I love every bit of the adrenalin rush...try it peeps!

Bungy Jumping : RM75Admisison : RM60 ( inclusive of 3 parks)

G-Force : RM30

(package : RM95)

p/s: Oh yeah! I'm soooooooo going to Korea next month! See ya soon my BIGBANG!